I
slept rough in ‘bashes’, a term describing an area in the street put aside by
homeless people to sleep in and kitted out with cardboard and blankets.
I
saw homeless people fight viciously over a begging space on the street,
I
saw the rent boys in Piccadilly being abused by punters,
I
saw deaths from drugs and alcohol misuse,
I
overdosed several times myself. One Time in the cubicle of the Tottenham Court
Rd public toilets opposite Astoria theatre, I had had a good day grafting (shoplifting)
and had a few quid, I set down on the floor my bags of stolen goods and had
injected a lot of heroin. With me in the cubicle were another Glaswegian and an
Italian guy. As I overdosed my eyes closing and my body slowly falling over, I
heard an Italian voice saying ‘The money is in his sock’, and a jubilant
Glaswegian shouting ‘Ya dancer’. So they got a result, were happy and left me
to die.
I
came round later, only by the skill of paramedics. I had no money, no stolen
goods, no shoes or socks and my main concern was not my well being but where
can I get my next hit.
The
West End and Kings Cross were the stomping grounds of the homeless, prostitutes
and drug dealers. I realised I was living in an unmerciful world. This period
of time, 1998 to 2003, I assert being the most dangerous in the history of the
city’s homeless.
In
the whole time I was homeless I never met anyone who could offer me a house, a
real sustainable accommodation. I met police a lot and met outreach workers 3
times in over 4 years. I had become suspicious of authorities giving up on them
totally and not trusting them at all. This included hospitals, doctors, police
and Social Security workers.
My
experience with agency workers was that there was a blatant power imbalance
between us, lack of empathy and of simple respect, and no consistent follow up
on proposals or agreements. So it was difficult for me to engage with hostel
workers even when I had an opportunity to be among them, and by the time I had
achieved the merest trust with any of them, I had been nicked, in prison or had
moved on.
My
friend Dree developed cellulitis on both arms. He had a high fever, headaches,
chills, sweats, very ill. The skin on his arms had hardened becoming flaming
red and swollen, like lobsters claws. He bedded down under the arches on
Remnant St off Kingsway leading into St Lincoln’s Inn Fields while I scoured
among the Soho prostitutes for anti-biotics, I also shoplifted health remedies from
a famous health shop on Oxford St. I returned to Dree with arms full of
medication and after two days he fully recovered from that condition courtesy
of Holland & Barret and the naked girls of Rupert Street.
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